Psalm 139: a reminder

I had the hardest time coming up with a name for my blog. Everything that came to my head was already taken. I tried to think about what it is that brings me peace when things I have no control over take control of me in the form of worrying and obsessing and not being able to let things go. Then I thought of Psalm 139. It is the verse that Dr. Dean read to me when I went through my miscarriage. It gave me peace: peace that surpasses all understanding. It helped me to realize that God knows me more than any other. Everything that happens truly happens for a reason and I may never know why I'm going through a specific trial, but God knows and he will ALWAYS provide. This verse reminds me that God knows ME and he will always be faithful to me. We must remember to praise him daily for we ARE fearfully and wonderfully made even when the world trys to tell us we're not good enough.


Psalm 139
For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, [a] you are there.

9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to [b] me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.

21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?

22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

How To Deal

Okay, everyone has told me how wonderful blogging is so I'm gonna give it a try. My hope is that by doing this, I will learn about myself while learning how to deal with the stresses of everyday life. Isn't that what everybody hopes for? I am learning how to make time for 3 people now: my husband, my baby, and myself. The third one listed tends to feel neglected----let me explain: I don't feel neglected by my husband or baby. I feel neglected by myself at times. I am the furthest thing from being selfish, but I am still learning the difference between selfishness and taking care of myself. I struggle with finding that balance (as most women do). Right now, my biggest battle is learning how to switch from "me time" to "hubby time" to "baby time" to "hubby time" to "me time" to "baby time"........................you get the picture. I know my feelings are very natural and normal and I know that writing down my thoughts, fears, and desires for my life will help me tremendously. Life is hard---TRUE, but we get through all of the road blocks and detours ONLY through our trust and faith in God. I want to always remember that!